a fresh start

so I've never been one to write new years resolutions but since I've decided to push myself this year, why not go that extra mile and give myself some new years resolutions ( so brave of me, I know). I'm not into all this 'new year, new me' crap because I've always been the same old me and I don't think ill ever become a new person, as such. I am me, and I come with all my imperfections and that's just the way its gunna be! However I am going to make a few focus points this year in the form of new years resolutions.
I'm 80% sure I will fail in all of these but hey, its worth a try, even if just for a laugh.





1. be more organised!
thought I'd start of with something simple. well, for everyone else it may seem simple but for me, the most unorganised, forgetful person in the entire world, sticking to this resolution will quite frankly be a bloody miracle.
2. raise awareness
By this I mean, raise awareness for the chronic illnesses I have- Ehlers danlos syndrome and Gastroparesis. not because I want everyone to get out the violins and feel sorry for me, not because I want attention but because I want it to be more recognised. I want these illnesses to get the recognition they deserve. for more people to be know what they are and not  think I'm making them up or speaking complete gobaldygoop. to make the 'invisible illnesses' visible.
3. turn the negatives into positives
sounds cheesy but is far from easy! don't get me wrong, I always appreciate the positives in life and generally a happy person but when I have to face difficulty's in life I do struggle just a tad. So, to help me deal with this, I will start looking for what I have learned from the negatives, what have I gained from it? I will head problems face on and remind myself that I have probably faced worse, and have managed to get back up again. I will become stronger through any struggles in life and they will just shape me as a person and build me up to become a better person.
4. paint more!
painting or art in general is a huge passion of mine, always has been. art is my life but I haven't actually painted something since the summer holidays. I need to start sitting my bum down and getting out the old paintbrush and paints. I think this will not only make me better but will also keep me happy! why not do more of what makes me happy?
5. keep up with this blog!
I reeeeaaally want to keep up with this. I know it will be hard at time, I will not want to do it just out of pure laziness but I need to push myself to do this because I think its a good thing to do and I will benefit from it. plus it will be really cool to look back after a year and visually see my achievement right in front of me.
so there you have it. my new years resolutions in writing. there's no going back!
here we go...